The record also features members of her support network on various songs. And what a network it is: The Cure’s Roger O’Donnell, Swans’ Kristof Hahn, and Blood Red Shoes’ Laura-Mary Carter all appear on the album. Fellow musicians they may be but most importantly, they are trusted friends. Carré hit it off with them individually at various Queen Kwong live shows, and they’ve all offered help and support throughout the rocky past few years, and with the recording of this album. “I feel lighter,” Carré says matter-of-factly.
It was such a purge. It was how I feel after I get off tour, where every day I’m just giving 100%. And every day I’m just purging everything out of me, so at the end of it I feel completely depleted. I guess I’m zapped in that way. I have just kind of puked up every last bit of whatever’s in me. It’s very physical.
It’s very emotional. It’s super draining. I give everything and that’s just what happens in the flow state. It’s not even an intentional thing. It’s just the only way I know how to do it. After I was finished recording, I was exhausted. Now that the record’s out, I just feel like I’m not carrying as much toxic energy and resentment and anger. I do feel like I’ve reclaimed my voice and that in itself makes me feel like I’m in a position of power.
It’s a tremendous amount of mental and emotional strain for a person to shoulder. Outpouring into a record helps but has it offered her a sense of peace? “I wouldn’t say ‘peace’,” she answers.