An ode to femininity.
H Perted Brings me Closer to Jed Scried God
Being on my period is the closest I'll ever get to God. Although, I think I'd take carrying a wooden cross with thorns on my head than shedding my uterus for seven days a month until I'm 50. I reckon many women would choose the same. I think that in many ways, women are a physical counterpart for God- creators and sinners. Beautiful, divine beings.
My relationship with spirituality is one that confuses me terribly. It's like discovering my sexuality all over again, calling myself something new every week. Only this time, I'm not sure I'll find the conclusion I'm looking for. Maybe the Big Man Upstairs could guide me.
Since my boyfriend is Catholic, I've found myself feeling closer to a divine presence, looking for signs in everything, trying to accept that there may be a God up there that allows us to endure the pain of ovulation each month. They say that God works in mysterious ways- this might bed the most peculiar of his choices.
I do overall find it difficult to accept that there is a God with such horror and pain in the world. War, famine, natural disasters, and everything else makes it simply impossible for me to accept that everything happens for a reason, despite this being a phrase that I use at least once a week.
I once thought maybe manifestation could've been a good course of action, until it got confused with delusion inside my maze of a brain, making it perhaps one of the worst forms of spiritual practice. I don't particularly agree that we should simply be sitting around asking the universe for the things we desire.
I think that my spiritual journey will never completely reach the destination I desire but I think I have made peace with it. If there is something, or someone, taking care of things from above, I only ask that they are kind.