Vienna Vienna Musings Vol 1

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• Page 2She dies and I go back to Nashville. 20 years-old and I’m freeloading, sleeping on an air-mattress in a friend’s living room and frankly they are getting a little sick of me (fair). I’ve finally let go of my religion, which at this point had been a private battle. After some months of doing nothing and being nobody I find my friends adore, but decide that I’m not ready to grow. The only thing in my grasp is the form of a child. I’m lonely, but the kind of lonely that arrives when you start to give in more. I figure it’s time to start smoking weed so I do. I switch to the tobacco phase a few years later. I start throwing shows in the living room which gets us boys up beyond late at night. My nostalgic sort who went to school at CalArts, California coddles the stoner. I’m staying with an odd collection of folks, sharing spliffs with middle aged lawyers that became tract scalpers. When it gets late enough, Nancy gets lazy and uses her pink cowboy hat as an ashtray. Most of the boys there arms are a little gray, so I scroll through hundreds of pictures of other half-naked men in my area. I enjoy the chatting and flirting, they enjoy what can only be described as my trauma. The more I date, the more my stomach hurts. Not from the stress and anxiety, I’d define it, but the pit in my stomach, which I was expecting would birth my love, fails me again. I stop backyard at the boy’s house, he smokes, talks about how his friend almost shot himself, I drive home. It wasn’t that I didn’t want him, I just wasn’t sure why.
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• Page 8I thought if I could hold the right rocks I’d talk to everybody’s version of God Maybe I could get in his thoughts So I thought
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