DEPARTMENT OF ARTISTIC AFFAIRS — ISSUE 001: EXCESS We are pleased to share Department of Artistic Affairs, Elephant Vision Lab’s first art magazine. Featuring works from our Excess open call, an interview with photographer Gigi Zhang, current projects, and future opportunities.
Having lived in China, New York, and London, how have different cultural environments influenced your understanding of the self?
When I first returned home to Kunming after years in New York, I realised that I didn't belong there as fully as I had expected. No matter how strong the nostalgia had been, the way I think and feel had already been shaped by the places I had lived. I found myself constantly searching for a new sense of belonging-something that wasn't completely Kunming or New York.
When I later moved to London, I encountered the same feeling again. I came to realise that no geographical region could provide me with a complete sense of belonging. The boundary between the inner self and the outside world is like the marks left by waves on a beach. The waves strike with force, but what remains is an accumulating imprint on the wet sand. In the end, I am made up of all my past experiences and all the places I have lived. A lot of people may have lived in the same cities, but it's the way the old self makes sense of things through the experiences it undergoes that shapes the future self
Your project Echoes and Reflections begins with the familiar experience of recognising oneself in a mirror. Why did the mirror become such a compelling starting point for this investigation?
I've been having trouble identifying myself with "my image" in the mirror for a long time. I was reading Lacan one day and his "mirror stage" theory struck me. I realised the reason I have trouble identifying with it is because the image that I present to other people (i.e., the image in the mirror) doesn't align with the image I have of myself in my mind. However, I cannot escape from my body—an entity that is usually associated with the idea of 'me.'