In The Meantime: 5 Year Anniversary

In the meantime turns 5 today. I know no one really cares about album anniversaries as much as the people who made them, in large part because those projects bottled a younger, unknowing iteration of who they were and sealed it tight. In my case at least, it’s not until these moments that I crack open that seal and peek inside. I started making this album at the height of the most crucial time in life. It was during that part of your early 20s when there is more road ahead of you than behind and it feels catastrophic rather than pacifying. When you take extra time in the mirror pinning back skin on your body, sculpting a cutout of yourself you think you’d be pleased with, only to realize later that you were living in the version of you you’d one day look for again. The part that is messy and scary, constantly buzzing with possibility and fear of which way the wind will tip you, not yet knowing it can be up to you. The world was quite literally falling apart; nothing made sense (within or outside of me). I was snugly hiding behind whimsy and fantasy, attempting to outrun an unrelenting loneliness that only a lotttt of time can help you recognize as the benevolent friend you need.

Surprisingly for my younger self, I look back at this time, creatively and personally, with such fondness and realize now that I'm always learning from that girl with the same clarity I hope she has learned from me. I miss her in a way. I'm proud of her and what she made. sometimes despite the truckload of pain and sometimes because of it. Thank you to everyone who held my hand through it and lent their gifts to this album that I love so much! 23 to 30 has been quite the journey! Thank you for listening. I hope you see some of you in here. maybe some old you or some now you. It gets so much better! ITMT 4LIFE!!!

NOW FOR THE FUN PART🧡💙 this week to celebrate, I will be sharing photos, videos, sounds, and thoughts from this album process as a little thank you gift to you. The first batch are in this book. There are some BTS photos, videos, voice-notes of my writing process, and an unreleased demo called ‘Far Away (freestyle)’. and maybe some more later. see you back here soon xxxx

PRODUCERS:

Banx & Ranx, Billboard (Producer), Boi-1da, Cameron Bright, Doc McKinney, Don Mills (Producer), Greg Kurstin, Hrag Sanbalian, Jake Torrey, Jason Evigan, Jeff Halavacs, Joel Little, Jon Levine, Mike Wise, Salaam Remi, Sir Dylan, Spencer Stewart & YogiTheProducer

WRITERS:

Alessia Cara, Albert Beach, Alyssa Reid, Billboard (Producer), Boi-1da, Cameron Breithaupt, Caroline Ailin, Charles Trenet, CHIKA, Clément Langlois-Légaré, Doc McKinney, Don Mills (Producer), Greg Kurstin, Jake Torrey, Jamie Appleby, Jason Evigan, Jeff Halavacs, Joel Little, Jon Levine, KNY Factory, KYLE, Mike Wise, Nathan Ferraro, Salaam Remi, Sir Dylan, Soke, SORAN, Spencer Stewart & YogiTheProducer

• Unboxing Intro
• Box in the Ocean
• Bluebird
• Lie to Me
• Shapeshifter
• Fishbowl
• I Miss You, Don't Call me
• Middle Ground feat. Chika
• Somebody else
• Drama queen clockwork best days
• Sweet Dream find my boy
• Voice in my Head
• Slow lie
• You let Me Down
• Apartment Song

Cloudy blue sky (Blue sky), over me

Echoes of old news (Old news), lingering

They're deafening, no point in anything

Nothing and everything matters (Matters)

Am I in reality? (I hope) Is it all a dream? (I don't know)

Such duality (Oh), animosity (I don't know)

Need some clarity, I missed therapy again, (Third time this, third time this week)

So damn hyperbolic (Hyperbolic), melancholic

(Melancholic)

Do I call him? (Don't you love it?)

I feel nauseous (Gonna vomit)

Have I lost you? (Have I lost you?)

Have I lost it? (Have I lost it?)

Have I almost hit the bottom?

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean (Ah)

• Da-da-da-da-da
• Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
• Da-da-da-da-da
• Da-da-da-da-da-da
• Things you'll never hear me say

Lock 'em up to keep them safe

Forget 'em, let 'em float away

Things you'll never hear me say

Lock 'em up to keep them safe

Forget 'em, let 'em float away

Let 'em float away

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Da-da-da-da-da (Ah)

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

I don't wanna grow old, I don't wanna be square

What if I'm a bad role model, what if I'm scared?

I don't think I could live up to the mother that my mother was If I always just feel so unprepared

I might be too weak to fall in love

And I might be too much for everyone

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Da-da-da-da-da

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da (Ah)

What if they forget about all I've done?

If I built it up just to be no one

I make my own expectations for every single situation

Then break my own heart when it all falls

I might be too weak to fall in love

And I might be too much for everyone

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Bluebird

I wish you bluebirds in the spring

To give your heart a song to sing

And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love (I wish)

Bluebird in the spring

Told me that your new girl makes you sing

Guess my loving only clipped your wings

So, I let you go

I loved you, but I couldn't keep you

I was broken, 'til I learned I didn't need you

Feelin' bold, I just might catch a flight to Rio

Put my feet up, cheer up

Tear up on the beach to Viva La Vida like

Frida

Bluebird in the spring

Told me that your new girl makes you sing

Guess my loving only clipped your wings

So, I let you go

I'll write you a song

I'll never send ya I don't wanna disrespect ya

I miss you, I do, but I wasn't for you

You look happier, I checked, of course (Of course)

I wish you the best, of course (Of course)

I'm hurting less, I'm sure

She'll be what you waited for Bluebird in the spring

Told me that your new girl makes you sing

Guess my loving only clipped your wings

So, I let you go

(I wish you) Bluebirds in the spring

To give your heart a song to sing

And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love

Oh, bluebird in the spring

Told me that your new girl makes you sing

Guess my loving only clipped your wings

So, I let you go

So, I le-le-let you

So, I let you go, I let you

So, I le-le-let you

So, I let you go, I let you

So, I le-le-let you

So, I let you go, I let you go

I thought you should know

That I wish you bluebirds in the spring

To give your heart a song to sing

And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love

Lie to Me

Are you see-through or are your disguised?

Hittin' me up, say you're wanting FaceTime

You're talkin' 'bout love and a house with a view

You better slow down if you're not speakin' truth

You better watch out if that's how you move

I just might be onto you, oh-oh

You love to say I'm crazy

Suspicious and insecure

But I'll show you crazy when you walk through the door

I-I, you're not home and it's half-past three (I-I)

Where are you when you're not with me?

Yeah (I) If you're with someone else (Someone else), come clean (Come clean)

I-I'd rather be by myself than let you lie to me

• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me

Are you a nice guy or a wise guy?

Said it don't matter, I'm just your type

Sayin' all the right things, but don't lie

I got a feelin' the streets have eyes

From a mile, I can see 'em

Players can't ever believe 'em, uh

Do you want me or your freedom?

And those words, do you mean 'em?

And they love to say I'm crazy

• Suspicious and insecure
• But, baby, can you blame me?
• You know I've been hurt before
• You love to say I'm crazy
• Suspicious and insecure

But I'll show you crazy when you walk through the door

I-I, you're not home and it's half-past three (I-I)

Where arе you when you're not with me? (I)

If you'rе with someone else, come clean

I-I'd rather be by myself than let you lie to me

• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me
• Ah, let you lie to me

Are you a nice guy or a wise guy?

Those brown eyes look a little too kind

Shapeshifter

Shapeshifter

I can't quite put my finger on you, you shapeshifter

I don't even know if you believe you, you minddrifter

I should've known it wouldn't be you, you big quitter

What a way to go, you didn't need to I'm still bitter

Who was I to think that I could be the one to change your mind

To mean more than some history, to have time on my side? Who was I to think that I could stop the sun from setting on us

Said you wouldn't break your promise, Mr. Honest

Don't know if I wanna get you back or get you back someday Don't know if I'm even mad or just sad you couldn't stay, yeah

Go figure, team switcher, it's a shame

Did I get fooled or are you a fool just like me?

Replace your guilt with philosophy, bright idea I bet you forgot you said you need me, on tequila

Got the two of us, we're dancing in a dream, buzz killer

We were never two, my dear, we were three (Hmm)

And who was I to think that I could be the one to make your choice

To mean more than some history, to cut through all the noise?

Who were you to think that I would be fine being disrespected

I hope someday you regret it, yeah, I said it

Don't know if I wanna get you back or get you back someday Don't know if I'm even mad or just sad you couldn't stay, yeah

Go figure, team switcher, it's a shame

Did I get fooled or are you a fool just like me?

• Shape (Uh-huh, uh-huh)
• Shapeshifter (Uh-huh, uh-huh)
• Shapeshifter

Shapeshifter (Uh-huh, uh-huh) S hapeshifter (Uh-huh, uh-huh)

Don't know if I wanna get you back or get you back someday Don't know if I'm even mad or just sad you couldn't stay, yeah

Go figure, team switcher, it's a shame

Did I get fooled or are you a fool just like me?

FishBowl

I wanna run and I wanna scream, but I wanna go to bed

I wanna cry and I wanna jump, but I need a safety net

Oh-oh, is it just me or are my feet one inch off the floor?

Am I confused or did this room get smaller than before?

It's gettin' too hard out here, don't feel like anybody

Is it getting hot in here? It's me against my body

I wanna disappear, why is everything so foggy?

I'm seeing double, I'm in trouble now

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Wishing I was someplace else, must be a reason

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

Am I swimming in the fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Wishing I was someplace else, must be a reason

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

I wanna hide and I wanna breathe, I wanna be good again (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

I wanna live and do anything without needing to phone a friend

Oh-oh, is it just me or are my feet three feet off the floor? (Yeah)

Am I confused or is this room much bigger than before?

It's gettin' too hard out here, don't feel like anybody

Is it getting hot in here? It's me against my body

I wanna disappear, why is everything so foggy?

I'm seeing double, I'm in trouble now

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Wishing I was someplace else, must be a reason

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Wishing I was someplace else, must be a reason

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

Am I—, in a fishbowl, can somebody talk me down?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

Am I swimming?

No way out, can somebody talk me down?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Wishing I was someplace else, must be a reason

Am I swimming in a fishbowl?

Am I in the deep end?

Oh, there's no way out, can somebody talk me down?

You played, I came to visit

You look the same, but different

Made me so damn sad and so I had to lie I'm tryna keep a distance

• But all my motor instincts
• Still know their way around
• And every sound’s amplified
• And the heart beats there

And we can't hide it, oh, no, no But I'm too scared

To breathe air into it, I might revive it, oh

Oh, I miss you, don’t call me

Oh, I miss you, don't call me If I get too ahead of myself

I can tell I won't stop me

• I miss you, don't call me
• Call me, don't call me
• Don't call me, please don't

I think of things to say so I never have to go home

Do you remember the last time we were this close?

You said that everything would be alright

And the heart beats there

And we can't hide it, oh, no, no But I’m too scared

To breathe air into it, I might revive it, oh

Oh, I miss you, don’t call me

Oh, I miss you, don't call me

If I get too ahead of myself I can tell

I won’t stop me I miss you, don't call me

Call me, don't call me

Don't call me, please don’t

You're the light I'm scared to turn on You're the bruise I'll never learn from Oh-oh

I'm the one who's under your thumb

You're the one I'll never unlove (Unlove)

Yeah

Oh, I miss you, don't call me

Oh, I miss you, don't call me

Oh, I miss you, don't call me

(Call me, don't call me)

You're the light I'm scared to turn on You're the bruise I'll never learn from (Don't call me, please don't)

Oh, I miss you, don't call me

I'm the one who's under your thumb

You're the one I'll never unlove (Unlove)

(Don't call me, please don't)

FT. CHIKA

I don't like boys, but I do I just hate it when they make me cry

I got barbwire around my house

But if someone would trade it for a picket fence

• I wouldn't mind
• Don't come near me, yeah
• But don't leave me alone

I got my dog and she's enough

But it'd be nice to hear a voice that's not my own

And I could use a hug sometimes

A little bit of love sometimes

My bed's a little cold on the left side

But it's warm enough sometimеs

I don't know what I want

Would I be better off Alonе or with someone?

• Drivin' me crazy (Oh)
• I don't know what I want
• To give in or give up

This middle ground I'm on Is drivin' me crazy, crazy

I'm not lonely, but I am

But catchin' feelings makes me sick

I don't need a man and all that jazz

But come to think of butterflies and starry-eyes, I don't remember hating it I'm weary, yeah

But I wanna jump in Fallin' into something's wonderful (Yeah)

'Til someone pulls the rug from under it

And I could use a hug sometimes

A little bit of love sometimes

My bed's a little cold on the left side

• But it's warm enough sometimes
• I don't know what I want
• Would I be better off
• Alone or with someone?
• Drivin' me crazy (Oh)
• I don't know what I want

To give in or give up (Hmm)

This middle ground I'm on Is drivin' me crazy, crazy (Yeah)

I like to think that there's somebody crafted perfectly

To see me at my best and still feel blessed to love the worst of me

Kiss away the hurt from me, address me with some courtesy

Hero after zero, guess my preference might be Hercules

Lift me up, I need a pick-me-up

I ain't movin' backwards, baby, my ex just hit me up

I ain't shootin' shots, but I can dribble

Daydream just a little

If that love is really meant for me, you'll meet me in the middle, ah

I don't like boys, but I do (I do)

I just hate it when they make me cry

I got barbed wire around my house

But if someone would trade it for a picket fence

• I wouldn't mind
• I don't know what I want
• Would I be better off
• Alone or with someone?
• Drivin' me crazy (Crazy, oh)
• I don't know what I want
• To give in or give up

This middle ground I'm on Is drivin' me crazy, crazy

Ooh, ooh

Drivin' me crazy (Ooh)

This middle ground I'm on Is drivin' me crazy, crazy

I don't know you, it was nice to for a while

I'm wondering if you're still thinking 'bout me

But I don't know that, so I fill blanks with my own pride

I tell myself you're miserable without me

I'm so at a loss

Still confused, waiting you out, waiting you out, ah

You're so far gone

Far removed and sleepin' sound, you're sleepin' sound

There's no grey this time, it's black and white

I'm by myself, you're somebody else

No between the lines, it's black and white

I'm by myself, and you're somebody else

Somebody, somebody else, somebody еlse [x4]

Thought it was until we're seventy

Now you're a ghost in front of me

Like some kind of black magic

You tricked me good, do you miss me just

A little bit, didn't it matter? No, no But I'm so at a loss

Still confused, waiting you out, waiting you out, ah

You're so far gone

Far removed and sleepin' sound, you're sleepin' sound

There's no grey this time, it's black and white

I'm by myself, you're somebody else

No between the lines, it's black and white

I'm by myself, and you're somebody else

• Somebody, somebody else, somebody else [x4]
• Something's just not right
• You're living a new life
• You're not yourself, not yourself
• You're gone but it's alright

I'm gonna be loved by Somebody else, somebody else

There's no grey this time, it's black and white

I'm by myself, you're somebody else

No between the lines, it's black and white

I'm by myself, and you're somebody else

Somebody, somebody else, somebody else [x6]

They tell us love done the right way is drainin'

Kissin' and arguin' and cryin' when it's rainin'

In that case, you and I got it made

Always on the ropes, we need a standin' ovation

I'm watchin' the same show

I know the endin' and I don't get it

Always on my toes It's not romantic, it's problematic

You're not in love with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, yeah

You're not in love with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama

I need a knight in shining armor

Not a drama queen, no You're not in love (In love) with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, drama

I'm not evеn yours anymore

But I deserve an award for gettin' over you, call the Academy You come around, you go away

Is this a game of how long you can stay mad at me?

Oh, here we go

You're not in love with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, yeah

You're not in love (Oh, no) with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama

I need a knight in shining armor

Not a drama queen, no You're not in love (In love) with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, drama

Da-da-da-dum-dum In love, in love, in love with the drama

I need a knight in shining armor

Not a drama queen

I need a knight in shining armor

You're a drama queen

You're not in love with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, yeah

You're not in love (Oh, no) with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama

I need a knight in shining armor

Not a drama queen, no You're not in love (In love) with me anymore, oh

You're just in love with the drama, drama

• It's like clockwork
• Wheels turn, heals, hurts
• It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Clockwork, wheels turn, heals, hurts

It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Woah, ah

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Oh-ah

Oh-oh

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

• It's like clockwork
• Wheels turn, heals, hurts
• It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Clockwork, wheels turn, heals, hurts

It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Am I a fire or the lighter, am I full of it?

Is it me or is it all of them?

I'm like my father, I am stubborn

I'm my mother's kid

I'll guilt myself into pain until there's nothin' left

(Nothin' left)

The air's gettin' grey now

I see it on the way down

Yeah, yeah

It's pickin' up the pace now

It's quicker on the way down, down, down

• It's like clockwork
• Wheels turn, heals, hurts
• It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Clockwork, wheels turn, heals, hurts

It's like clockwork, bad, worse

Tired of sittin', livin' with it 'til it drops

Can't run from what I'm made of, but why can't

I Identify with parts that I'm supposed to recognize?

I got a tight grip on the lesson this time I won't let it go

Until I let it go, there it goes

Air's gettin' grey now I see it on the way down

Aw, yeah It's pickin' up the pace now

It's quicker on the way down, ooh

• Best Days
• So much harder to be honest
• With yourself at twenty-somethin'
• Wish I knew what I'm becomin'

And felt the ground while I was on it

Hopin', waitin' on a moment

Not knowin' if it's comin' or it's goin', mm

What if my best days are the days I've left behind?

And what if the rest stays the same for all my life?

I'm runnin' with my eyes closed, so it goes

You live and then you die

But the hardest pill to swallow is the meantime

Are the best days just the ones that we survive?

If I had known to feel thе fire (Fire)

I would've thrown my arms up highеr (Higher)

Woulda held on a little tighter

'Cause you don't know a thing you miss 'til it's behind you, mm

What if my best days are the days I've left behind?

And what if the rest stays the same for all my life?

I'm runnin' with my eyes closed, so it goes

You live and then you die

But the hardest pill to swallow is the meantime

Are the best days just the ones that we survive?

What if my best days are the days I've left behind?

And what if the rest stays the same for all my life?

What if the best days are the days I've left behind? (Ooh, ooh, ooh)

And what if the rest stays the same for all my life? (Ooh, ooh, ooh)

4:55, everybody else is snoring

My heavy eyes, I can never seem to close 'em

My running mind, just can't catch it when it's going

Is it late at night or is it early in the morning?

Only so many sheep a girl can count

Patchouli candles burnin' out I try to meditate it all away

But, damn, it is too quiet now

Daylight helps distract my head

Monsters hide under my bed

They bother me with all kinds of things like

"Where do I go when I'm dead?"

Is it too much to ask for a sweet dream?

Need a step back from my feelings

Life is not so bad when I'm sleeping

Is it too much to ask, too much to ask for a A sweet dream?

For a sweet dream

6:58, sun's peakin' through the curtains

I drift away, suddenly the wheels are turnin'

Songs are in my head, scary thoughts begin to worsen

Once I'm wide awake, it's too hard to reverse it

Chirpin' birds are flying 'round my house

Patchouli candles burnin' out I try to meditate it all away

But damn, it is too quiet now

Daylight helps distract my head

Monsters hide under my bed

They bother me with all kinds of things like

That one stupid thing I said

Is it too much to ask for a sweet dream?

(Sweet dream)

Need a step back from my feelings

(Feelings)

Life is not so bad when I'm sleeping

Is it too much to ask, too much to ask for a A sweet dream?

• For a sweet dream
• A sweet dream
• For a sweet dream
• Sandman, can you visit me?

All I want is a sweet dream

8:31, I'm slurrin' every word now

I pray this cold coffee helps me with the rebound

How does everybody I know know how to sleep sound?

When we're all a mess, I guess the only way out is a A sweet dream (Sweet dream, sweet dream)

Is a sweet dream (Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, ah)

Sweet dream (Oh yeah)

Is a sweet dream (Yeah)

Find My Boy

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

I'm running out of luck and time to waste

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

You better hurry up if you're the one for me

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy (Oh nah)

• Find my, find my boy
• (Can't seem to find my boy)
• Find my, find my boy

Catch me in Toronto with a Cappucino

Always on the run in my same old sneakers

I'm talking to you so turn up your speakers

Man of my dreams, I can't wait to meet ya

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

I'm running out of luck and time to waste

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

You better hurry up if you're the one for me

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy

• Find my, find my boy
• Find my
• Find my
• Find my boy (Find my boy)
• Find my, find my boy

Are you tall with a spot in Florence?

Are you short and sweet with a love for poems?

Are you by the beach doing yoga poses?

Man of my dreams

Are you out in Brooklyn grabbing a pizza?

Skating down the block, down in Ipanema

Hitting up Milan's finest galleria

Man of my dreams

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

I'm running out of luck and time to waste

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy

I've had a couple loves, didn't go my way

You better hurry up if you're the one for me

I don't understand, I can't seem to find my boy

Find my, find my boy

Are you with you friends on the rooftop laughing?

Smoking in LA, tryna kick the habit

Bought a grand piano that you'll never practice

Man of my dreams

Are you on a bad datе, thinking of running?

Fancying the lady at the bar in London

Singing to yourself just bеcause you love it

Man of my dreams

Voice In My Head

Voice in my head, need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud I'm tired of walking under your raincloud

Hey, now, now

You weigh me down (Ooh, ooh)

Voice in my head, need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud (Ooh, ooh)

I'm tired of walking with my head down, down

• Hey, now, now
• You wear me out (Ooh, ooh)
• Hey, now, now
• Hey, now [x3]

Hey, now, now (Ooh, ooh)

Voice in my head (Voice in my head), need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud (Oh)

I'm tired of walking with my head down, down

Hey, now, now

You wear me out (You wear me out, ooh, ooh)

Voice in my head (Yeah), need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud (Ooh, ooh)

I'm tired of walking under your raincloud (Under your grey clouds)

You weigh me down (Ooh, ooh)

Tired of walking with my head down, down (Ooh, ooh)

Tired of walking with my head down, down

Your raincloud Hey, now, now (Ooh, ooh)

There's an evil figurine in my brain

Windin' me up and pullin' all my strings

Like I'm some kind of paper doll lackin' backbone

Made of elasticity, turns out it's just me

Stretchin' myself thin, breakin' my own heart

I'd jump right out if I could, never out of the woods

I'm stuck with me after all

I just wish I could shake the burdens off

Voice in my head, need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud

I'm tired of walking with my head down, down

Hey, now, now

You wear me out (Ooh, ooh)

Voice in my head, need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud I'm tired of walking under your raincloud

• Hey, now, now
• You wеigh me down (Ooh, ooh)
• It's like therе's two of me

Insecurities takin' up all my brain space, covered in expectations

I can't even hear myself thinkin', what is that about?

Too many chefs in the kitchen and I'm burnin' out I'm runnin' on empty, feel like

I can't breathe I'd escape myself if I could never out of the woods

I'm stuck with me after all I just wish I could shake the burdens off, yeah

Voice in my head, need a muzzle 'cause you're way too loud

I'm tired of walking with my head down, down

Hey, now, now

You wear me out (Ooh, ooh)

• Slow Lie
• Such a slow lie
• Bet your life
• That everything will stay the same

Swear it's the ones who said that they'll never change

• Slow lie
• Bet your life
• That everything will stay the same

Swear it's the ones who said that they'll never change

Don't you go lose yourself and build a glasshouse

On the wrong things, on the wrong things

Don't you go dull your mind by gettin' too high

Off a big name, off a big name

Don't you go lose yourself and build a glasshouse

On the wrong things, on the wrong things

I can picture you still on the hill It's always the ones who said that they'll never change

I know it wasn't much to ya

But you dressed it up so pretty, didn't you?

Who wouldn't get caught up and lately I'm seein' right through ya

By the way, I moved to the city, you're too busy bein' tied up with Other things, everything's different here

• Wonderin' where you been, you disappeared
• I guess I'll see you around
• I'm sure I'll see you around
• Such a slow lie
• Bet your life
• That everything will stay the same

Swear it's the ones who said that they'll never change

• Slow lie
• Bet your life
• That еverything will stay the same

Swеar it's the ones who said that they'll never change

Was it too much for ya to have said goodbye

Or apologize? It's kinda messed up that even after all I told ya

You won't look in my eyes (My eyes, my eyes)

I probably should be caught up with Other things, everything's different here

Wonderin' where you been, you disappeared

I guess I'll see you around I'll see you around

You Let Me Down

And I'll go as fast as I can

No time for a moment to myself

And I'll go as fast as I can

I swear on my life it's for the best

Though our moments kept us waiting

I will keep it, keep it sacred

Like it's golden, wish you nothing

But an exhale, and I'm hoping you hear when I say

I never meant to let you down

Oh, I

I love you but you let me down

You evergreened the fire in my past

Can't run free if I keep looking back

It's a lost cause, it's a bad bet

It's a storm but gotta face it

Oh, I

I love you but you let me down

Yeah, oh, I

I love you but you let me down

The last time for an eternity

You're only mine when I am on my feet

You're elusive and it kills me Inconclusive, never-ending

Oh, I

I love you but you let me down

Yeah, oh, I

I love you but you let me down

And I'll go as fast as I can

No time for a moment to myself

And I'll go as fast as I can

I swear on my life it's for the best

And I might call you on your birthday

Cover words I wanted to say

With some small talk, and I'll tear up

But I'll go on, and I'll hang up before I can say

Apartment Song

Light in my head

Turned on in the morning, what a wonderful world it is When you can see it (Oh, oh)

Tears that I shed, turned into glitter

On the floor of my apartment

Pop of shimmer I needed (Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh)

I know I'm a bummer, got no lover, but the color

Of the sky tonight's so nice I don't mind (Hey, hey)

Slid under the cover, change my number, feels like summer Under kitchen light, it's nice I don't mind, yeah, yeah

Something in the air

I'm tripling in size, oh I, I swear (Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh) Something in the air

I've been up all night and I don't care (Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Filling a void

With the joy I'm feeling

Though I know that it is fleeting

I will welcome it in (Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh)

We'll dance to the noise

Of whatever's on TV

For someone who gets so needy, I could get used to this (Get used to this, oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh) I know I'm a bummer, got no lover, but the color

Of the sky tonight's so nice I don't mind (So nice I don't mind)

Slid under the cover, change my number, feels like summer Under kitchen light, it's nice I don't mind, yeah, yeah

Something in the air

I'm tripling in size, oh I, I swear (Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh) Something in the air

I've been up all night and I don't care (Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh, oh

I know I'm a bummer, got no lover, but the color

Of the sky tonight's so nice I don't mind (Yeah, yeah)

Something in the air

I'm tripling in size, oh I, I swear (Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh) Something in the air

I've been up all night and I don't care (Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah) Something in the air

I'm sleepin' inside, Oh I, I swear (Oh yeah, yeah)

Something in the air (Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah)

(Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh)

Something in the air Tonight

Here are some of original voicenotes I recorded while writing In The Meantime, or the beginning inklings of it.

BLUEBIRD, AUGUST 28, 2020

YOU LET ME DOWN, JAN 2 2020

• BEST DAYS, JAN 25 2020
• CLOCKWORK, MAY 14 2020
• MIDDLE GROUND, OCTOBER 26 2020

I started making this album at home in Toronto (pandemic was still raging and we couldn't fly yet! This is from one of those earlier sessions during my week with Mike Wise. We hit it off right away. Find My Boy happened pretty quickly that day, which to me always means that the song was meant to exist and should probably come out.

This one is about manifesting your soulmate and the sheer curiosity of wondering who / where they are. It was me throwing a hail Mary lol

When things got a bit safer, I took a road trip to montreal to work with some really great people, including Doc Mckinney (pictured here). We made Somebody Else this day. One of the ITMT sleepers, in my humblest opinion!

then I went back to Toronto to work with Jon, who I've been working with for years and love dearly. It's always a stupid time!

These are from when we finished producing and recording proper vocals for Box In The Ocean and Best Days.

We even accidentally got the Holiday Stuff cover out of it, courtesy of Liv. and our Moody's Mood rendition.

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